WHY?

Wondering why I named my blog "Dreams and Fantasies"?

Well, this is the place where I can let go of my frustrations in life. I do rant about my life, but only to myself. I'm not the type of person who'm you would talk all day ending up with the 'story of my life'. I'm more like the one interested in your life. Yes, I'm talkative. But I'll just go with the flow of your story or sometimes tell one of my embarrassing moments that happened awhile ago. You might say I'm one kind of a boring person. You don't have to think twice 'cause I am. I better spend my weekends at home, watch movies, read online, read a book or eat all day. LOL! That's how my life goes. 

Here goes nothing. What do I really want to do?

ONE, Frustrated Singer. LOL! I don't know. All of us love music. I haven't encountered someone who hates it. I just don't understand why I didn't get the talent. 

TWO, CPA-Lawyer. I always dreamt of eversince (as what I have told you on one of my recent blogposts). Right now, I'm planning to take Accountancy after, maybe 3 years of working as an Engineer. I am just not satisfied with what I am doing right now. I just don't feel that this one's for me. Asking me why I'm still stuck on this? 'Cause my parent's won't allow me to shift course and I don't wanna be a failure to them. Hopefully, I would be able to achieve this even to the CPA part only. It would really take a long time for me to study Law. But I'd really love to. 

THREE, Fall in Love. Yeah. Typical for a teenager like me. I know it sounds so cliche but who doesn't want to. The problem is I don't have crush on real people. What I mean is that all of my crushes are celebrities, someone not attainable. That thing gives me another problem. Crushes are supposed to be inspiration for your studies. Yes, they're my inspiration, but I still can't focus on school works. Every time I have to do something requiring a computer-use, I usually end up on searching or reading articles about them. So, please, search me someone I can crush on real life. I want to focus on my studies. I don't want to end up fangirling every night. Boy Crush: Daniel Padilla, Kristoffer Martin. Girl Crush: Kathryn Bernardo.

FOUR, Fan Girl. So I talked about celebrities on my previous entry and I am one hell of a fan girl of KathNiel and KrisJoy. I just love them both as individuals or as a loveteam. But I am the quiet type of a fan. I don't express my fandom on twitter or anywhere else. I don't go to their mallshows even if the mall's a tricycle ride away or a 10-minute walk from home. I got contented on watching them on tv or seeing their pictures on the internet. I don't even watch their movies legally. I usually wait for a torrent release. Still, I want to see them in person. And I know I will, someday. When I'm earning my own. I can buy their stuffs(albums, posters, whatever). Or maybe I'll work at the network just to see them. 

FIVE, Weight. It's obviously I have weight issues on myself. It's just hard to control on what I eat. I had it as my lifestyle for the past 19 years. I tend to eat whenever I want to though I'm not hungry. Also, when my favorite dish is served, I overeat (is there such a term?), even my stomach is full, as long as I can still accommodate the food, I'll go on. And now, I'm just realizing I shouldn't have done that. I should've listened when I was younger. It's hard that with my course, when I become a professional, I am required to be in a corporate attire and its hard to find sizes for me.

SIX, Fashion. I've been really looking forward on the dressing myself more ladylike. Before, I'm used on wearing jeans and shirt whenever I have to go out of the house. But now, I would like to try something new on me. Like in our upcoming CPE Night, I'll be wearing sleeveless top and shorts plus heels. I know, it looks awful on me. Hahahaha. I hope I would be able to carry myself through the night.

SEVEN, Thoughts. I want to know on how to express more of my thoughts, more like opinions on public. But I'm not a born leader. I don't know how to speak and make them listen to me. I don't have the confidence, maybe because of the looks. My weight issues seems lowers my self-esteem.

There are a lot more out there, and it requires time. That's it for now. Ciao! Schoolwork first! :)))