WHY?

Wondering why I named my blog "Dreams and Fantasies"?

Well, this is the place where I can let go of my frustrations in life. I do rant about my life, but only to myself. I'm not the type of person who'm you would talk all day ending up with the 'story of my life'. I'm more like the one interested in your life. Yes, I'm talkative. But I'll just go with the flow of your story or sometimes tell one of my embarrassing moments that happened awhile ago. You might say I'm one kind of a boring person. You don't have to think twice 'cause I am. I better spend my weekends at home, watch movies, read online, read a book or eat all day. LOL! That's how my life goes. 

Here goes nothing. What do I really want to do?

ONE, Frustrated Singer. LOL! I don't know. All of us love music. I haven't encountered someone who hates it. I just don't understand why I didn't get the talent. 

TWO, CPA-Lawyer. I always dreamt of eversince (as what I have told you on one of my recent blogposts). Right now, I'm planning to take Accountancy after, maybe 3 years of working as an Engineer. I am just not satisfied with what I am doing right now. I just don't feel that this one's for me. Asking me why I'm still stuck on this? 'Cause my parent's won't allow me to shift course and I don't wanna be a failure to them. Hopefully, I would be able to achieve this even to the CPA part only. It would really take a long time for me to study Law. But I'd really love to. 

THREE, Fall in Love. Yeah. Typical for a teenager like me. I know it sounds so cliche but who doesn't want to. The problem is I don't have crush on real people. What I mean is that all of my crushes are celebrities, someone not attainable. That thing gives me another problem. Crushes are supposed to be inspiration for your studies. Yes, they're my inspiration, but I still can't focus on school works. Every time I have to do something requiring a computer-use, I usually end up on searching or reading articles about them. So, please, search me someone I can crush on real life. I want to focus on my studies. I don't want to end up fangirling every night. Boy Crush: Daniel Padilla, Kristoffer Martin. Girl Crush: Kathryn Bernardo.

FOUR, Fan Girl. So I talked about celebrities on my previous entry and I am one hell of a fan girl of KathNiel and KrisJoy. I just love them both as individuals or as a loveteam. But I am the quiet type of a fan. I don't express my fandom on twitter or anywhere else. I don't go to their mallshows even if the mall's a tricycle ride away or a 10-minute walk from home. I got contented on watching them on tv or seeing their pictures on the internet. I don't even watch their movies legally. I usually wait for a torrent release. Still, I want to see them in person. And I know I will, someday. When I'm earning my own. I can buy their stuffs(albums, posters, whatever). Or maybe I'll work at the network just to see them. 

FIVE, Weight. It's obviously I have weight issues on myself. It's just hard to control on what I eat. I had it as my lifestyle for the past 19 years. I tend to eat whenever I want to though I'm not hungry. Also, when my favorite dish is served, I overeat (is there such a term?), even my stomach is full, as long as I can still accommodate the food, I'll go on. And now, I'm just realizing I shouldn't have done that. I should've listened when I was younger. It's hard that with my course, when I become a professional, I am required to be in a corporate attire and its hard to find sizes for me.

SIX, Fashion. I've been really looking forward on the dressing myself more ladylike. Before, I'm used on wearing jeans and shirt whenever I have to go out of the house. But now, I would like to try something new on me. Like in our upcoming CPE Night, I'll be wearing sleeveless top and shorts plus heels. I know, it looks awful on me. Hahahaha. I hope I would be able to carry myself through the night.

SEVEN, Thoughts. I want to know on how to express more of my thoughts, more like opinions on public. But I'm not a born leader. I don't know how to speak and make them listen to me. I don't have the confidence, maybe because of the looks. My weight issues seems lowers my self-esteem.

There are a lot more out there, and it requires time. That's it for now. Ciao! Schoolwork first! :)))

OVERJOYED

Guess what?, I'll be back at Makati this Friday for an interview and an exam on two different companies. Good luck's really on my side. After confirming on their notifs, I received a text message from KMC asking if I already got an OJT. I said NO, of course, nothing's really sure, and after a few text messages, she ended up on saying "we'll just process you on summer". I was just too shy to ask on if it was super sure that they're hiring me. And also, I think it's so awkward to ask something like that. But I would definitely love to work at KMC, it's a real estate company, one of my dreams. It feels so good that you're really ending up on somewhere you want to be. But honestly, it looks like I'm not happy anymore on what I'm doing with regards to school. It just stresses me so much. Add the fact that I was somewhat dragged into my course. I dreamt of being an Engineer, a CIVIL ENGINEER. But my first choice was really ACCOUNTANCY, I would like to have it as my pre-law course. Dreaming of being a CPA-LAWYER, eversince. But I'm stuck in here, I've got no choice. Well, it's okay. I learned to love my craft for the past years, it won't harm me to continue struggling for the last remaining year. 

School vs Anything

Hi guys! School's making me so busy, but still, I got time to write this stuff. I just love to do anything rather than study. LOL! I know, I should be studying by now, but I prefer on doing these. Time management's really not for me. I don't give myself enough time for studying. I always say to myself that "WTF are you doing? You have lot of school stuffs to do!!", but still ending up on either reading City of Glass (I'm on the third book now of Mortal Instruments. YAY!) or watching some shitty things on TV or playing with my one-year old cousin or just do nothing. You know, I'm the type of 'I'll do what I want, anytime, anywhere.'. and I just don't know how to control myself. Thinking of ways on how to help myself, especially that summer's fast approaching and I have to search for a company for my OJT.

In connection with my OJT, we had our orientation yesterday. I was shocked that there are lot of things to prepare for it. Lots of papers to be printed, signed by whoever needs to sign it, plus there are MIDTERM and FINAL requirements for it. I wasn't really expecting these things, especially that I have seen my brother's way on his internship program. It was like he just started his internship without any paper, add the fact that the school was the one who searched for their place. While in our profession, we have to search by ourselves, it's up to you, whether you want someplace near you, or in Manila area. But still, I'm still excited for my OJT. I have sent a lot of resumes, and expecting some messages by March, as what they've told us, and hopefully, that I got to be working in Makati or in the Global City area. But I think I have no choice, because I have only submitted my resumes in that area. Oh, including Ortigas, but I really am not hoping for that place, but I love the companies we sent our resumes in there. I've never had submitted my resume here in Bulacan, I just don't know if my father sent my resume to his ex-boss who has a project here in Bocaue. The only problem I've got is the place to live. I hope we got to find a low-cost but safe and comfortable place out there. And also, my peers' parents either doesn't agree for them to work there or rent a place there. So probably, I'll be with the other girls or gays in the class. Well, it's time to get closer. HAHAHAHAHA. :))

So, starting tomorrow, I decided to make myself be organized. I will make a schedule on doing school stuffs and my relaxation time. I hope this one will work for me. But, on the other hand, I don't think this will work. Well, there's no harm in trying.

BEEN THROUGH HEAVEN AND HELL

This week had been a blast for me. School was making us very busy. We had exams everyday (except for Wednesdays, which we really do not have classes) and add the pressure of searching for your internship. 

Monday started so well, I guess. A take home quiz was submitted for Enercon that day that I found very easy, since the answers can be 'googled' nowadays. After, exams for Computer Interfacing, which basically included pin configurations and programming. And last, for the day, was a practical exam in Java. This particularly, makes me insane. You really don't know what to do, even though you know how to code the program. Our professor is somewhat intimidating, that when you ask her a question you don't understand, she'll make you look stupid in class. That's why no one ever dared to ask a question again in class.

Tuesday, I got to school at 8 am, where my first class starts at 7:30 am. Good thing my professor still gave me the exam. Maybe she's used on me, being late on her class. Next, was an exam in Troubleshooting. I reviewed it so well, that I almost thought I understand the topic already. But then, when I got the papers, my mind got totally blocked. Luckily, I still score 35 out of 50. Not bad. And for the last subject was Engineering Management, where she discussed about job interviews and resume. She also announced that our midterm would be an interview. And we are required to be in a corporate attire. Girls are required to wear blouse, skirt, and heels. This caught my nerves. I already wore a skirt, during my High School graduation but heels, I just hope I can bring it on. 

Wednesday was purely OJT hunting. My friends and I rode the UV express on the way to the MRT North Avenue station. It was so shocking how long the line was. It was really my first time to saw that. I've rode the train many times, but never experienced that thick crowd. So, we've decided to drop off at the Quezon Avenue station. We first walked around, searching for companies. Luckily, we have submitted to two companies. Then, we went to Ayala, Makati. We first decided to have lunch at the foodcourt at SM. After eating, we also saw our classmates there, and decided to go hunting together. But after walking a few meters, we decided to split into groups, again. We went to ACER and submitted our resumes. We were nervous because interview was up next. We are asked to stay at the lobby for a few minutes and called us one by one. I was the last one to be called, and I did not go with it seriously. I have no plans on working with popular companies already (which makes me wonder why I am applying to companies like that). We also took an exam at NOVAED. The exam was composed of 15-item English and 30-item Math and  Logic. I scored 7/15 in English and 29/30 in Math. As our instructor (he was the one who guide us, I don't really know his position) said, 60% was the passing. He also said that we will receive a confirmation message that night or early morning tomorrow. We got to leave Makati at 6 pm. We rode the MRT at Buendia station. It took us roughly 30 minutes before riding the train. We also had dinner at McDo Trinoma before heading home.

Thursday, we had our written exam in Java. First part was multiple choice. I almost fell asleep during the exam. It's not that it's easy, but it really takes time to think of the answer. Some questions require more than one answer, and you can't even think of one.Second and third part was identification and true/false. These parts was better that the first ones. Troubleshooting went on next. We checked our exam last tuesday, and I passed it as I have said earlier. Our professor also discussed the last part of the topic and I didn't listen to her. I was really sleepy that day. It was so awkward when my professor makes eye contact with me, and asks if we understand what she's discussing. Well, of course, I would nod or sometimes say yes for the discussion to be finished early. What made me alive was receiving a text message from KMC Mag Group regarding our OJT application. We have submitted our resume to them last week. We are asked to visit their Taguig office on Friday. I really got excited, because I really want to go to the Global City.

Friday, I did not go to school since our group doesn't have a computer unit that have a parallel port. I went straight to the MRT station, and meet my friend there. Together, we went to Ayala station and ride the bus to go to Taguig. The bus was amazing. The seats were on the side, and like an ordinary bus, there was a 5-seater at the back part of it. We went of the bus somewhere in 4th avenue. We were really amazed by the place, that even though the sun is striking, you'll still love to walk around. Inside our heads, Makati was amazing, Global City was beyond that. We went to the office and had a conversation with Ma'am Estee. I am a bit confused on whether it is sure of us being employed as interns. But, I'm still thinking twice about working for them. We are only required to have a 250-hour training, but their minimum is 450 hours. But, we will be given a certificate for OJT after finishing 300 hours. I'm confused, if after receiving the certificate, do we still have to finish the remaining 150 hours. We also submitted resume on two companies there. I just hope there are still others who'll contact me/us. I'd really love to live there after graduation. I had always dreamt of working abroad but after being there, it made me feel contented here in the country.

:)))))))))))))))

Quizzing instead of Reviewing

So, I got two exams tomorrow for Java, and Interfacing, but I don't know how to review for it. It's all like programming and stuff. It's really hard to review things like this especially if you're professor's a bit unpredictable. So I decided just to search for anything interesting somewhere. While browsing, I tried this quiz in candymag.com and just sharing my results with you. I haven't really watched Les Miserables, but hopefully soon, when schools not so annoying. :)))

Here's the quiz link, btw: http://www.candymag.com/quizzes/which-les-mis-rables-character-are-you

"You are Madame Thernadier. Madame Thenardier is funny, rambunctious, and outspoken. Mix these traits with a questionable set of morals and you have a character that's practically impossible to favor.  She's got high hopes and she'll do anything to get them. Although she does go way too far most of the time. She may not be considered nice by absolutely anyone, but no one can deny the fact that she's insanely entertaining."

Sisterakas

I watched Sisterakas the other night (downloaded it via torrent). I was quite disappointed with the movie, that made me think 'how the hell it became the top grosser?'. I was thankful to my sister for refusing when I am asking her to watch the movie last Christmas season. I really want to watch it before because the trailer looks so funny. Yes, it was a bit funny, but I'm looking for the story. The story was so dumb. Vice Ganda's lines were funny. Ai-Ai's was quite 'overacting', that it looks like she was copying Eugene Domingo's way of talking as Dora in Kimmy Dora. Kris was okay. Kathryn and Daniel looks cute together, it's undeniable (Okay, I'm a fan of them. They're also one of the reasons why I really wanted to watch the movie.). Plus Patrick Sugui and Tom (from PBB Teens) was also part of the movie, just sayin'. Enough for this post.


**This was written based on my personal opinion.

First ever blogpost here.

Okay. So I decided to make another blog after deactivating my tumblr account. I seriously don't know what to do with this blog. Maybe just exploring my blogger self. Good Luck to me! God Bless you, guys! :))))