Recently, I've been involved with a "bullying" case inside the classroom. I was not close to the one who was being bullied, so I took side of the "bully group". It's not that I took their side, but they were my friends since 1st year college.I knew them more than her. I was shocked I was involved in the list of the 'offenders'. I was not expecting it, honestly, because I am not entirely part of the act, though I admit that I made fun of the issue. Even my peers and the group was also shocked that my name was called. I really don't know how the issue started. My mind just got cleared when the issue was discussed. At first, I was mad at her for involving me there, but then I realized that I was wrong. I was not supposed to react on the issue. It's just that I can't avoid on talking so much that sometimes I hit some boundaries which may have caused her to add me on the list (though I really don't know what it is). I am really insensitive about some things and other people's feelings. But if you know me too well, you'll just ignore whatever I have said. I'm the type of person who doesn't think before talking. I just get used on it. I can't change it, I've tried many times, but this is really me.
For me, for you to go through your life, you have to accept yourself first. Learn to love yourself, accept your flaws. Once you haven't done that, how can other people accept you. You have to learn to laugh at yourself, when others are making fun of you. But of course, there are limits. When you know its too much, you have to confront them that you're hurt, that they're crossing the line.
But I get it. Not everyone can be like that. But, you can, if you want to. Getting rid of your insecurities will be the first step. I also had insecurities before until now but I do not really absorb it. Sometimes, I use it as my motivation to do better. I may lack what they have, but I can work on it. It is my way of proving myself to others.
Show a little devilish side of yours. You'll never know anything if you just go with the flow on your environment. You have to get out of your shell. There's no fun, no excitement, nothing for you to thrill about. You have to push your limits, but never go beyond boundaries.
I hope you're getting my point. No insecurities. Be YOU.
Me, being part of this mess, is thankful. It's just that I learned another lesson from life. You know on what to do next time something like this happens.
I just realized on how lucky I am to have real friends on my side when I need them the most. I felt touched yesterday, that they've waited for me when I was asked to stay (but I know they're waiting for the story. LOL!). I can see it that they were concerned on my situation. Also, to the 'bully group', thanks for defending me that I wasn't really part of the act.
That's all. Ciao!
PS
. "Ang kasalanan ko lang naman is madaldal ako, at malakas akong tumawa."
PPS.
To her, I'm sorry if I have offended you. It wasn't my intention. I am not mad at you on having me on the list, at first yes, but then realizations struck me on the middle of the discussion. I hope we can still be friends after this.
