Wish Upon A Star

It is common to us, people, wishing for things we want so bad. And when it's granted, there's this unexplained feeling of happiness deep in our hearts. But, with my situation, IDK why I'm not happy. Still, I'm confused with whatever I am feeling at this moment. Having my wish granted just made me feel more complicated than ever. I don't want to open up what's really my situation is. It feels so awkward on telling somebody about this. Though, I'm planning to share this with my best friend. It would help me lighten up whatever I'm carrying.

I know, GOD has HIS reasons. HE gave me this because he knows I can. I just want to clear my mind with these things.  

The Best CPE Night so far...

This year, I really enjoyed our annual CPE Night, themed Music Defies Gravity. The main event was the Battle of the Bands. I definitely liked the the theme since bands was really my stuff. I have been influenced by my high school classmates, who also have a band before. I was a big fan of their band before, but then college works made me busy that I haven't kept in touch with then since they've been studying in Manila. My classmates also joined the competition. The competition was divided into three categories: OPM, Random choice, and Music Video (wherein you can choose a song to cover or use an original song). Luckily, they grabbed the "Best Original Composition". I must say that the song was so good (it sounded to me like the songs of SpongeCola), but it's the only original entry. They also placed 2nd runner-up out of 7 bands competing. There were also comedians that night. And it made me laugh so hard. They were picking up students for their gags and I was pointing at one of my girlfies, but she slaps my hand and obviously doesn't want to be on stage. By the time the program was over, my classmates and I were so excited about the dance, but there are slideshows presented by the graduating students. It really messed up with our mood. The "real party" started at 3:30. The first party song was just ignored by the students, but when Harlem Shake was played, you know what happened next. Us, girls, went gaga on the dance floor. We even had a showdown with the freshmen on stage. It was really fun dancing even though I don't know how. It's just no one cares on whatever you do. No one. You don't have to get conscious on what you're doing. I hope next year's party would be as great as this one. Kudos to the officers of SCOES!!

The stage and trophies.

I so loved the stage design. It doesn't look like it was rushed as what I have heard from my classmate who was an officer and was in-charge of the event. 

The girls at the registration area.

This year, our section was chosen to help the officers. The boys were asked earlier to set-up the venue, while the girls were at the registration area to welcome our fellow CPE students.

Girlfriends.

Me and my girlfriends. We are actually 7, but only the 4 of us managed to attend the event. I was the one who asked them to wear shorts that night. I thought that the dress code which was semi-formal doesn't really suit the theme. So I decided to wear more of a party-like clothes and convince them to wear the same. 

My son and foster-daughter.

Being in school, you really build a family. So here's my son and daughter. I don't even know how it started but I'm enjoying conversations with these two lovelies.

ME.

Top from Forever21

Shorts from Mom's Closet

Shoes from Solemate (SM Department Store)

WHY?

Wondering why I named my blog "Dreams and Fantasies"?

Well, this is the place where I can let go of my frustrations in life. I do rant about my life, but only to myself. I'm not the type of person who'm you would talk all day ending up with the 'story of my life'. I'm more like the one interested in your life. Yes, I'm talkative. But I'll just go with the flow of your story or sometimes tell one of my embarrassing moments that happened awhile ago. You might say I'm one kind of a boring person. You don't have to think twice 'cause I am. I better spend my weekends at home, watch movies, read online, read a book or eat all day. LOL! That's how my life goes. 

Here goes nothing. What do I really want to do?

ONE, Frustrated Singer. LOL! I don't know. All of us love music. I haven't encountered someone who hates it. I just don't understand why I didn't get the talent. 

TWO, CPA-Lawyer. I always dreamt of eversince (as what I have told you on one of my recent blogposts). Right now, I'm planning to take Accountancy after, maybe 3 years of working as an Engineer. I am just not satisfied with what I am doing right now. I just don't feel that this one's for me. Asking me why I'm still stuck on this? 'Cause my parent's won't allow me to shift course and I don't wanna be a failure to them. Hopefully, I would be able to achieve this even to the CPA part only. It would really take a long time for me to study Law. But I'd really love to. 

THREE, Fall in Love. Yeah. Typical for a teenager like me. I know it sounds so cliche but who doesn't want to. The problem is I don't have crush on real people. What I mean is that all of my crushes are celebrities, someone not attainable. That thing gives me another problem. Crushes are supposed to be inspiration for your studies. Yes, they're my inspiration, but I still can't focus on school works. Every time I have to do something requiring a computer-use, I usually end up on searching or reading articles about them. So, please, search me someone I can crush on real life. I want to focus on my studies. I don't want to end up fangirling every night. Boy Crush: Daniel Padilla, Kristoffer Martin. Girl Crush: Kathryn Bernardo.

FOUR, Fan Girl. So I talked about celebrities on my previous entry and I am one hell of a fan girl of KathNiel and KrisJoy. I just love them both as individuals or as a loveteam. But I am the quiet type of a fan. I don't express my fandom on twitter or anywhere else. I don't go to their mallshows even if the mall's a tricycle ride away or a 10-minute walk from home. I got contented on watching them on tv or seeing their pictures on the internet. I don't even watch their movies legally. I usually wait for a torrent release. Still, I want to see them in person. And I know I will, someday. When I'm earning my own. I can buy their stuffs(albums, posters, whatever). Or maybe I'll work at the network just to see them. 

FIVE, Weight. It's obviously I have weight issues on myself. It's just hard to control on what I eat. I had it as my lifestyle for the past 19 years. I tend to eat whenever I want to though I'm not hungry. Also, when my favorite dish is served, I overeat (is there such a term?), even my stomach is full, as long as I can still accommodate the food, I'll go on. And now, I'm just realizing I shouldn't have done that. I should've listened when I was younger. It's hard that with my course, when I become a professional, I am required to be in a corporate attire and its hard to find sizes for me.

SIX, Fashion. I've been really looking forward on the dressing myself more ladylike. Before, I'm used on wearing jeans and shirt whenever I have to go out of the house. But now, I would like to try something new on me. Like in our upcoming CPE Night, I'll be wearing sleeveless top and shorts plus heels. I know, it looks awful on me. Hahahaha. I hope I would be able to carry myself through the night.

SEVEN, Thoughts. I want to know on how to express more of my thoughts, more like opinions on public. But I'm not a born leader. I don't know how to speak and make them listen to me. I don't have the confidence, maybe because of the looks. My weight issues seems lowers my self-esteem.

There are a lot more out there, and it requires time. That's it for now. Ciao! Schoolwork first! :)))