NEW HEADER PHOTO

So, as you can see, I have changed my blog header. I really don't understand now naming my blog Dreams and Fantasies. And I decided to change it. I haven't decided on what to name my blog now so I just edited this simple photo with my blog link on it. This is really my first time on creating my own header. Hoping to come up with a new blog name on the following weeks.

Ciao!

PS. I'm trying to be active again. Hashtag SEMBREAK!

FUTURISTIC

I am currently enrolled for my last semester this college. Yay! I've survived Engineering in just a span of 5 years. I know I have been very pessimistic on my last semester. I almost gave up on studying and thought that I will fail no matter what I do. But thanks to those who pushed me through this. 

Honestly, Computer Engineering isn't my choice. It just came out on my mind during college application and I was only allowed to apply on BSU and UP. Before, it was really either Chemical Engineering or Accountancy, which is not both offered on BSU during that time (BSU now offers Accountancy). But the past few days, I have been into reading a lot of fashion blogs and thought to myself "I want to be like them, someday". For now, it's kind of impossible because of the lack of budget and time. Being a graduating college student is very stressful. Trust me on this! So lately, I've been thinking of Marketing. My parents already allowed me to take a second course. But at first they really want me to take Masters in COE. But realizing that COE's not really for me, I just thought of business courses. I'm really into Fashion Marketing these days.

About taking my second course, I will be the one to support myself on it. I already made my plans. HAHAHA. I told you, I've been over thinking of my future. After graduation, I will first take a rest on all the stress I got from school. COE has no board exam but are allowed to take the ECT Licensure Exam under ECE. I'll be taking that exam. And the rest will be the resting part until July, which is the Summer Graduation for some of my unfortunate classmates who hadn't taken their internship last summer because of some wicked professor. LOL. Then, I'll be applying for a job. Most likely, a programmer or developer. Wishful that I'll be hired as soon as possible, my salary will be dedicated to my parents, self-budget, and savings.

In my so-called self-budget, it consists of  my daily allowance and shopping. Hoping that this will lead me to a new career. Fashion Blogging! Inspired by my favorite fashion bloggers, Kryz Uy and Camille Co. They always have the time to shoot their OOTDs even being very busy with their respective careers. I am envious of them that they have discovered fashion at a young age, while I am at my 20s and still hesitant about it. Hesitant because of my size and my skin. I am fat and my skin's not that pleasant (I have skin asthma before, so there's lot of mini scars). I am very sorry that I haven't listened to my Lola that I should have taken care of my skin, that I should have used scar removers on my younger days. Now I have to buy my own scar removers instead of just asking my parents for it. HUHUHU. Most people would say "Nasa huli ang pagsisisi", I know. :(( Butt I just have to move forward. I hope that my dreams as of now would come true. And that it was final. I tend to to change my mind at the last minute. 

Ciao! :))

WHY?

Wondering why I named my blog "Dreams and Fantasies"?

Well, this is the place where I can let go of my frustrations in life. I do rant about my life, but only to myself. I'm not the type of person who'm you would talk all day ending up with the 'story of my life'. I'm more like the one interested in your life. Yes, I'm talkative. But I'll just go with the flow of your story or sometimes tell one of my embarrassing moments that happened awhile ago. You might say I'm one kind of a boring person. You don't have to think twice 'cause I am. I better spend my weekends at home, watch movies, read online, read a book or eat all day. LOL! That's how my life goes. 

Here goes nothing. What do I really want to do?

ONE, Frustrated Singer. LOL! I don't know. All of us love music. I haven't encountered someone who hates it. I just don't understand why I didn't get the talent. 

TWO, CPA-Lawyer. I always dreamt of eversince (as what I have told you on one of my recent blogposts). Right now, I'm planning to take Accountancy after, maybe 3 years of working as an Engineer. I am just not satisfied with what I am doing right now. I just don't feel that this one's for me. Asking me why I'm still stuck on this? 'Cause my parent's won't allow me to shift course and I don't wanna be a failure to them. Hopefully, I would be able to achieve this even to the CPA part only. It would really take a long time for me to study Law. But I'd really love to. 

THREE, Fall in Love. Yeah. Typical for a teenager like me. I know it sounds so cliche but who doesn't want to. The problem is I don't have crush on real people. What I mean is that all of my crushes are celebrities, someone not attainable. That thing gives me another problem. Crushes are supposed to be inspiration for your studies. Yes, they're my inspiration, but I still can't focus on school works. Every time I have to do something requiring a computer-use, I usually end up on searching or reading articles about them. So, please, search me someone I can crush on real life. I want to focus on my studies. I don't want to end up fangirling every night. Boy Crush: Daniel Padilla, Kristoffer Martin. Girl Crush: Kathryn Bernardo.

FOUR, Fan Girl. So I talked about celebrities on my previous entry and I am one hell of a fan girl of KathNiel and KrisJoy. I just love them both as individuals or as a loveteam. But I am the quiet type of a fan. I don't express my fandom on twitter or anywhere else. I don't go to their mallshows even if the mall's a tricycle ride away or a 10-minute walk from home. I got contented on watching them on tv or seeing their pictures on the internet. I don't even watch their movies legally. I usually wait for a torrent release. Still, I want to see them in person. And I know I will, someday. When I'm earning my own. I can buy their stuffs(albums, posters, whatever). Or maybe I'll work at the network just to see them. 

FIVE, Weight. It's obviously I have weight issues on myself. It's just hard to control on what I eat. I had it as my lifestyle for the past 19 years. I tend to eat whenever I want to though I'm not hungry. Also, when my favorite dish is served, I overeat (is there such a term?), even my stomach is full, as long as I can still accommodate the food, I'll go on. And now, I'm just realizing I shouldn't have done that. I should've listened when I was younger. It's hard that with my course, when I become a professional, I am required to be in a corporate attire and its hard to find sizes for me.

SIX, Fashion. I've been really looking forward on the dressing myself more ladylike. Before, I'm used on wearing jeans and shirt whenever I have to go out of the house. But now, I would like to try something new on me. Like in our upcoming CPE Night, I'll be wearing sleeveless top and shorts plus heels. I know, it looks awful on me. Hahahaha. I hope I would be able to carry myself through the night.

SEVEN, Thoughts. I want to know on how to express more of my thoughts, more like opinions on public. But I'm not a born leader. I don't know how to speak and make them listen to me. I don't have the confidence, maybe because of the looks. My weight issues seems lowers my self-esteem.

There are a lot more out there, and it requires time. That's it for now. Ciao! Schoolwork first! :)))

OVERJOYED

Guess what?, I'll be back at Makati this Friday for an interview and an exam on two different companies. Good luck's really on my side. After confirming on their notifs, I received a text message from KMC asking if I already got an OJT. I said NO, of course, nothing's really sure, and after a few text messages, she ended up on saying "we'll just process you on summer". I was just too shy to ask on if it was super sure that they're hiring me. And also, I think it's so awkward to ask something like that. But I would definitely love to work at KMC, it's a real estate company, one of my dreams. It feels so good that you're really ending up on somewhere you want to be. But honestly, it looks like I'm not happy anymore on what I'm doing with regards to school. It just stresses me so much. Add the fact that I was somewhat dragged into my course. I dreamt of being an Engineer, a CIVIL ENGINEER. But my first choice was really ACCOUNTANCY, I would like to have it as my pre-law course. Dreaming of being a CPA-LAWYER, eversince. But I'm stuck in here, I've got no choice. Well, it's okay. I learned to love my craft for the past years, it won't harm me to continue struggling for the last remaining year.